When you have really started to face life, and begin to set your face like flint against the onslaught of constant fear of being hurt, making a misstep, letting those you love down, or just to face life in general, it is easy to become discourage, to retreat into a dismal cave filled with alcohol, drugs, and sex, or even to go as far as committing suicide, because we will do anything to escape having to face our fears.
I too have faced and am facing many decisions in my life that could cause me to retreat in various ways for various reasons. As a matter of fact, I used to retreat into my cave filled with alcohol, (that was my drug) and sex. Life had a dismal and bleak outlook, and even though I thought I was happy and I even portrayed a “happy me” the reality is I didn’t know what true happiness was. I had a false sense of security, a hidden denial in myself, and lack the confidence that only could come from one person.
As my life began to change, and I was born (see “It’s my birthday”), I began to spend more time reading my bible. The time grew and grew until it almost totally consumed my day. I learned scripture, some for the first time, and others I gained a deeper knowledge, and a development of humbleness for what the LORD was actually doing in my life. How He had always been there, even though I didn’t acknowledge it, nor see it, and He was truly the only reason I was even still alive.
Well as you know my “birthday” just recently passed, and as tradition has it, you receive gifts on your birthday. This one was no exception in the fact that I received a gift, but it was immensely different in what the gift was and whom it came from.
I have spent so much time with God that I truly looked for something from Him. You see I am doing well at facing life and I am proud to say the cave has been blocked from entry. But I still have challenges every day. That is called LIFE. Even if everything in your life is perfect, like you eat chocolate and never gain weight, or every day someone gives you a million dollars, life alone will tear at you and break you down to the point you will want to run into a cave.
This year I asked God for a gift from Him. And He gave me one. He directed me right to His Word, and this He embedded into my Spirit: “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. “Behold, all those who were incensed against you Shall be ashamed and disgraced; They shall be as nothing, And those who strive with you shall perish. You shall seek them and not find them—
Those who contended with you. Those who war against you Shall be as nothing, As a nonexistent thing. For I, the Lord your God, will hold your right hand, Saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.” –Isaiah 41:10-13
When you look at life and it starts to stare you down and proclaim its intimidating words to you such as, “you can’t make it”, “I will beat you”, and “No one is going to like you” or any other words that makes you no longer be more than a conqueror, get back up and speak aloud these words of God in the face of your situation. The LORD promises He will make it work out for you and that you shall be an overcomer, and all you have to do is STAND!
Hallelujah!
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